Mission Statement

I served a few years in the military and have come to a conclusion that everything has a goal, or a mission. I would only be cheating you to write all of this down without clearly stating my mission. I wanted to reenlist, I wanted to like the navy, I just couldn't. I think even they recognize how they broke their own rules in their persecution (not prosecution) of me. I owe them until the day I die, and I plan to pay on my debt daily.

I seriously was not a trouble maker before that boat ate me. One would only need to reflect upon the fact that I was almost legally blind and did not know it until half way through high school to legitimize my statement. Even not being able to see did not stop me from making the honor role year in and year out. I also was sent to boys state, which is pretty exclusive. My only criminal offense ever on record was one where my brother came to court to admit his guilt.

Sidebar: The judge knew the plaintiff, so fact was not allowed in the court room. They called fact a terrorist and stopped him at the door. In fact, fact is currently serving 3 consecutive life sentences. They never want to allow innocent minds to be poisoned by fact.

What am I trying to say? I am not going to say that I always do my best, but I usually try hard. I wanted to kill myself for years of my life. I was very open about my distaste for life. If you read through this web site you will see multiple requests for a change which were ignored, as were the times I stopped breathing, the cars I crashed, the nights I woke up not knowing how I got where I was including multiple IV's, and even the random trespassing ticket achieved while drunk. Am I proud of the dumb things I did, no. Was it obvious that I was out of control, yes. The first attempt at help the navy offered was when they destroyed my work records after I blacked out and told a kid I did drugs.

Here is the scenario. They care about their image and they do not even follow their own rules. I am interested in bringing this to light. This is not for personal gain, but for those who follow. If only one person does not follow in my foot steps due in part to something I have said, then I have performed years worth of public service. I am not interested in lying, as I never was. I just want people to know that there is a reason that suicide is one of the leading causes of death in the navy, year in and year out.

I can say this because their report on the wall at rehab confirmed what I thought and felt, let alone the kid I stopped from killing himself while he was there. I was sent to rehab years after I stopped breathing and only after months illegally given jail time and a weekend in the psych ward for frosting on the cake.

If I would have not woke up on any of the many mornings I should not have, it would have been a total surprise, a shocker. It also would have been bullshit. There are few stimulants on a submarine, and if you are mildly depressed it can spiral you into severe suicidal depression. From what I have experienced, requests for help will be ignored. Even the kid that turned me in threatened to slit his wrists within a week of my leaving the navy.

My goal is to raise the level of public awareness such as to require their image to match what reality is. If everyone that went through an experience like I did was as loud as I am, then they couldn't destroy people for the greater good. I will be satisfied when innocent people are not ruined for the greater good. I will be satisfied when suicide is not one of the leading causes of death in the navy.

GO WAR!!! KILL KILL KILL!!!

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